October 12th we remembered our angel. I spent the day constantly thinking about her last moments. It was hard. I found myself crying and going through her memory box. She may have only lived for 24 hours, but she changed my life and views forever. It's difficult sometimes to see a little girl that is around a year old and know that is where Addison may have been at this time, but I know that she is safe in the arms of my Savior. I have experienced and felt a lot of emotions over the past year and to go over all of them would probably have me signing a book deal. I can't even begin to describe in this blog what we went through during my pregnancy with Addison and how we have felt and dealt with our grief over the last year. It is because of Addison and having to say goodbye that is partly the reason that I NEVER put Hannah down. We are extremely grateful that God saw fit to bless us with Hannah just 2 weeks shy of Addison's 1st birthday. When she gets older, we will tell her about her older sister. The way I deal with my children has changed. To remember our angel, we sent up a sky lantern in her memory.