Wisdom to Live By

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

7 Months Later

May 11 she would have been 7 months old.  May 12, on Mother's Day, was the seventh month anniversary of her passing.  Where are we now?  Still very much grieving and missing her, but hopeful and looking to the future.  The sixth month anniversary was super hard.  A lot harder than I thought it was going to be.  It hit me pretty hard.  Today is little harder than I thought too.  1 year ago today we were sitting in an ultrasound room being told that not only does she not have down syndrome, but that she won't even survive.  "We believe she has Trisomy 13," is what he said.  I remember feeling like the world was crashing down around me when we left the room.  The weeks after that moment felt like an eternity.  I'm a little nervous about what the 1 year mark will hold for us.  But a lot has happened over that last 7 mos.  Still very much grieving and trying to move forward, we got a little surprise blessing in January.  We are expecting #5.  We were shocked and excited with a little nervous thrown in.  Here is a picture of our little surprise.
What was interesting about this pregnancy is that I felt a peace from the beginning.  I did not from the moment I found out I was pregnant with Addison.  This little girl will arrive Sept. 2013 and is happy and healthy.  Goose is hoping for a birthday present. :P  I tried to explain that he doesn't realize what he's asking for, sharing his birthday.  We will keep you posted on how we are doing.  Continue to pray for our family as a lot of changes and a possible move at the end of this year will be happening.  Thanks to all.  All for now.